Lord, do you watch as 
I hold behind my eyes, 
tears in waiting?  
Do you see the foundations 
for my dreams as they seem 
to crumble at my touch? 
And my poor misguided 
love seems to wander 
with lack of  purpose.
There's nothing I can 
do to salvage the 
remnants of my happiness. 
As it is your wish 
for me to leave my 
rooms and the walls  
that protect me.  
I know the strength 
for my task is at 
hand or you wouldn't 
guide me in this direction.  
But Lord, I pray as 
the last minutes 
draw near, 
save me from this fate.

"I said this prayer, 4 years ago.
Shut up in my room, disabled I 
prayed that I could stay there,
for I lacked the courage to
change.  I believe God saw
into my heart and gave me
a answer to my hearts desire
instead of the expression 
of my minds fear."

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