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                              Dreams as a KS Kid..

  My first recollection of dreams is after age 5. From gae 5-8 the dreams are fuzzy. (thankfully) 
 From age 8 to age 13 they very slightly, although on the same theme. 
The theme of the dreams was 'TRUST GOD ALWAYS' and together GOD & i would be able to  beat the spiritual warfare battles. These dreams began occurring after my dad told me that I had to  choose between being a boy OR a girl at around 8, My response was that I would rather stay as I  was an use ALL OF MY BRAIN, INSTEAD HALF OF IT. (what he did next is illegal these days  for parents to do to their children)
Dream #1- 
  The dream starts off with me as a girl, dressed as a girl, tied down in the yard with a leather  halter tied to a metal chain, with the metal chain attached to a stake, buried in the ground. 

1.  The devil leaps the fence and comes after me to try to attack me. 
   a. GOD then reveals the presence of HIS MIND to my mind-in the dream. 
   b. ergo I instantly know GOD and know that HE IS, EXISTS eternally, past, present, future, 
   c. HE tells me (thought transfer in the dream) that HE is my Heavenly Father and if I will ask
HIM for HIS help, then together HE and i will beat the devil. 

2. I look upwards yelling 'Heavenly Father help me'. 
    a. God entered me and then -together He & I-  then began beating up the devil. 
    b. he was kicked back over the fence. 

3. Next night annd each night thereafter....the dream changed slightly. 
    a. he is pushed back down into the smoking black pit. 
    b. pushed further down into a hellish place with people in torment. 

4. After 5 years of this theme of dreaming. 
    a. God and I have pushed staan the devil all the way down  to the bottom of the bottomless pit. 
    b. God appears as a spirit and carries me to safety. 
    c. lessson learned- 
      TRUST GOD ALWAYS NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS SEEM TO GET. 
 

While all these dreams are occuring nightly from 1952-1957 (age 8 to age 13) what I am
experiencing in school takes the patience of Job. What I experience the next 4 years is even more
stressful. 
 
 

I did not marry anyone from high school, because I had no girlfriend, nor boy friend, because I  was using all my energy to stay alive by carrying weapons on campus for self protection. 
When out numbered, I had the adrenalin ability to run extremly fast though the streets in between  the cars (not getting hit) and jumping over 6 foot_ fences on the run. Only once do I remember  jumping onto a fence and then running down the length of the fence jumping thru yards to avoid the  guys chasing me. 
 

I was called a queer several times a week from the 8th grade to the 11th grade and some guys  didn't like that. Besides in the lockewr room as soon as I undressed to shower it was rather  obvious that part of me looked female while part of me looked male. After awhile I skipped taking  showers, until one day the coach caught me. After I took a shower he took one look at me and told  me to never take a shower again.  I was then pulled from regular gym class and spent the rest of  junior high in the gymnastics room. In high school the same thing happened in in the last year of  high school I was back in the gymnastic room doing situps, again. 
 

What is really funny is that I did not know what the word  'queer' meant by the students. I though  'queer' meant 'odd or ecentric, different'. I was 19 years old when someone explained to me that  the word 'queer' meant 'homosexual.' I had to ask what a 'homosexual' was. That was explained to  me too. I am glad I did not know what it meant when I went to junior high and high school. 
 

Yet though all the trials I had in school, I felt the 'Presence of GOD' telling me that no matter how  angry I got at someone, I was not allowed to kill them, even though I had the ability to do so. That I  had to learn how to deal with them, without harm to them. Well it worked, with one exception. 

One day in 1960 I get stressed while already meotionally stressed. 
NEVER STRESS ANYONE WHO IS EXPERIENCING P.M.S.- 

About 1960 I 'lose my cool' and in a few seconds - using Ju Jitsu - break his right arm, shoulder,  collar bone, and a few ribs as I slam him into a hall locker. The locker door is crushed inwards,  showing no paint on the door where his should joint smashed the door inward. One door hinge  was torn off as was the combination lock. His name is James Garner. Possibly a 4th or 5th cousin  to me. (no not the actor). 

I saw Jim seven years later in 1968 at a truck shop in Sun Valley, Ca. 
He had married his high school sweetheart, Alice. . 

What I learned then and since then is that 'macho men' will not let you alone. They have no respect  for themselves and hence, for no one else either. So for them to feel good about themselves they  have to pick on anyone they think is inferior, so they will feel they are better. Those kind of men  are JERKS. Yet they too need salvation.

I knew a lot of kids who claimed to be Christians. Nice claims, no truth that I COULD see reflected in their behavior..