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KS SOURCES OF INFORMATION
Dreams as a KS Kid..
My first recollection of dreams is after age 5. From gae 5-8 the dreams
are fuzzy. (thankfully)
1.
The devil leaps the fence and comes after me to try to attack me.
2.
I look upwards yelling 'Heavenly Father help me'.
3.
Next night annd each night thereafter....the dream changed slightly.
4.
After 5 years of this theme of dreaming.
While
all these dreams are occuring nightly from 1952-1957 (age 8 to age 13)
what I am
I
did not marry anyone from high school, because I had no girlfriend, nor
boy friend, because I was using all my energy to stay alive by carrying
weapons on campus for self protection.
I
was called a queer several times a week from the 8th grade to the 11th
grade and some guys didn't like that. Besides in the lockewr room
as soon as I undressed to shower it was rather obvious that part
of me looked female while part of me looked male. After awhile I skipped
taking showers, until one day the coach caught me. After I took a
shower he took one look at me and told me to never take a shower
again. I was then pulled from regular gym class and spent the rest
of junior high in the gymnastics room. In high school the same thing
happened in in the last year of high school I was back in the gymnastic
room doing situps, again.
What
is really funny is that I did not know what the word 'queer' meant
by the students. I though 'queer' meant 'odd or ecentric, different'.
I was 19 years old when someone explained to me that the word 'queer'
meant 'homosexual.' I had to ask what a 'homosexual' was. That was explained
to me too. I am glad I did not know what it meant when I went to
junior high and high school.
Yet though all the trials I had in school, I felt the 'Presence of GOD' telling me that no matter how angry I got at someone, I was not allowed to kill them, even though I had the ability to do so. That I had to learn how to deal with them, without harm to them. Well it worked, with one exception. One
day in 1960 I get stressed while already meotionally stressed.
About 1960 I 'lose my cool' and in a few seconds - using Ju Jitsu - break his right arm, shoulder, collar bone, and a few ribs as I slam him into a hall locker. The locker door is crushed inwards, showing no paint on the door where his should joint smashed the door inward. One door hinge was torn off as was the combination lock. His name is James Garner. Possibly a 4th or 5th cousin to me. (no not the actor). I
saw Jim seven years later in 1968 at a truck shop in Sun Valley, Ca.
What I learned then and since then is that 'macho men' will not let you alone. They have no respect for themselves and hence, for no one else either. So for them to feel good about themselves they have to pick on anyone they think is inferior, so they will feel they are better. Those kind of men are JERKS. Yet they too need salvation. I
knew a lot of kids who claimed to be Christians. Nice claims, no truth that I
COULD see reflected in their behavior..
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